Another day, they go by fast. I come in here to be with you, and I find the same heartbreaking thing every time. Tons of pictures, (even though you hated to have your picture taken). Pictures of you and your sister, your Brother, and your extended brothers, Pictures of you with Amanda, Aaron, your niece and nephew, Pictures with Dad. I always held the camera. Your gone, We will meet again, but no pictures anywhere of just you and me. We always have those thoughts, what we would have done differently, that is one thing I would do for sure. I would sit beside you, hug you and let someone else take our picture. a fantastic picture of us together, us laughing, hugging, and being a family. It can not happen now. But it is one thing I will regret FOREVER. Love you so much my son.

This will be hard to write!! No one will ever know why you left us, I work on understanding every single day, but for my own sanity, I have made myself believe that for the most part, your apartment, and being cooped up in it day after day, had a lot to do with what happened. So I'm saying out loud, that I do understand, and with what is going on here now makes it even easier, if that is at all possible. Without going into too many details, You definitely would not have gotten the help you needed, or would have been able to go through what we are going through right now. It is coming up to a full year, there has been a horrible virus, COVID19, raging through, not only here at home but world wide. Hundreds of thousands of people all over the world have died. We are under right now, a STAY AT HOME ORDER, and the premier of our province has put is into ANOTHER state of Emergency. basically what it means is we have been wearing masks, staying home, and it is just getting worse with time. It has the ability to develop other streams of the bug, the world is in line for vaccines but because of that, they are dwindling in and out. Our hospitals and our health care is over loaded, everything is filled up with Covid patients, For the first time since you left us, I'm glad you are not fighting with your ghosts and having to be isolated in your tiny little apartment. I also realize that with your lung problem, you could have been even more susceptible to it than most of us. I love you forever, no matter what. and I am just glad you do not have to live and fight this thing and worry about catching something terrible every time you would walk out your door. Sending huge Hugs Loves you.

Always thinking about you!!!!